Wednesday, April 17, 2013

From the archives: Another Essay. Another take-out. Another year.

I wrote this the day I got my admit letters. I can still feel the euphoria in the words :) Perhaps I never put it up because it reads like a Bollywood awards night thank you letter - naming random events and people and coming across as a little bit conceited :-P 
Anyhoo - This was my year - May 2012 to May 2013! 

What a year it has been! Starting with the move to Delhi, the year has gone by at breakneck speed. From learning how to manage my house to figuring out a new job, new city, new friends to completing applications and essays and forms to handling rejections and finally getting positive responses, it has been a year of extreme highs and lows.

I feel like I have spent the last year thinking about answers to supposedly deep questions and guessing how the world (or at least admissions committees) would judge me for those answers. It's been angsty, exhausting and very annoying for people who stood by me through this and I am thankful to those people for reading what I wrote, for answering my inane questions over and over and for telling me as many times I needed to hear it "you can do this! Just apply!".

What do I hope from the next year?
A little more patience - to understand that most things happen at the time they are meant to happen and always being in a hurry doesn't get me to my destination any faster.

A little more strength- to let go of dreams that can never be fulfilled and to let go of people who just don't feel the same way about me, no matter how much my gut tells me that I love them.

Fewer tears - so that I stop myself from crying at every tragedy, big or small, and learn to never let anyone or anything mess with my 'sense of self'.

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